Sure, here is the revised text without any references to Catholicism or “the Holy One”:
“When you get older and you are ready, your ancestors will show up to guide you.” - Joe Coyhis, STOCKBRIDGE-MUNSEE
Many of us, when we are young, spend a portion of our lives learning, sometimes learning the hard way. In our youth, we often think we know everything and sometimes do foolish things. As we get a little older, we realize we don’t know anything. This is when we become teachable. There is a saying that goes, “when the student is ready, the teacher appears.” We usually aren’t teachable unless we are ready. The ancestors are waiting and willing to help. When we are ready, many beautiful teachers start to come into our lives. Then we really start to grow and mature. We are ready for the spiritual lesson.
Practicing honesty
“When we feel trapped or pressured, it takes great spiritual and emotional strength to be honest.”
Many of us try to wiggle out of a difficult spot by being dishonest, only to humble ourselves later and tell the truth. Some of us twist our stories as a matter of course, even when we could just as easily tell the plain truth. Every time we try to avoid being honest, it backfires on us. Honesty may be uncomfortable, but the trouble we have to endure when we are dishonest is usually far worse than the discomfort of telling the truth.
Honesty is one of the fundamental principles of recovery. We apply this principle right from the beginning of our recovery when we finally admit our powerlessness and unmanageability. We continue to apply the principle of honesty each time we are faced with the option of either living in fantasy or living life on its own terms. Learning to be honest isn’t always easy, especially after the covering up and deception so many of us practiced in our addiction. Our voices may shake as we test our newfound honesty. But before long, the sound of the truth coming from our own mouths settles any doubts: Honesty feels good! It’s easier living the truth than living a lie.
With Independence Comes Responsibility
“Learning to make decisions for ourselves also means accepting responsibility for those decisions.”
We aren’t alone, and we can’t recover alone. But our commitment to mutual support doesn’t negate our independence or the responsibility that attaining it–and sustaining it–demands. Even with all the apt suggestions we provide each other, our decisions about how we live are our own. And learning to live with those choices is its own beast!
Some members define responsibility as the willingness to accept the consequences of our actions. Even clean, we have to keep learning the lesson that our choices aren’t made in a vacuum. They affect those around us. When we find ourselves thinking once again, “I’m only hurting myself,” it’s time for a closer look. We may want to exercise freedom of choice with more awareness and care.
And other members say, “Careful what you wish for–you just might get it.” Often when we do get what we want, it’s a whole other world of responsibility that is ours to manage. A romantic partnership, getting our kids back, a career, property, a new puppy–all of these are gifts we must care for in order to sustain. “We keep what we have only with vigilance”–and also with commitment, discipline, patience, acceptance, passion, and a lot of love.
Another aspect of taking responsibility for our independence is when, inevitably, we are faced with other people’s opinions about a new direction we choose. At times, that “I told you so” reaction we get makes us defensively dig ourselves further into a bad choice–or someone else’s response spurs us to run from a good one. Blaming others gets us nowhere. Practicing independence requires an honest assessment of our choices in the face of others’ reactions. We’ve also heard members say, “The more I make new mistakes rather than repeating old ones, the more I know I’m making headway in my life.”
Just for Today: Today I will honestly embrace life, with all its pressures and demands. I will practice honesty, even when it is awkward to do so. Honesty will help, not hurt, my efforts to live clean and recover.
I’m doing the best I can at living fully and owning my independence. I can live with my choices, and, if not, I can make different ones!